This Is Me...

      Sarah Ann Walker
This Is Me...

WARNING- GRAPHIC CONTENT and THEMES

The tragic conclusion to 'I am HER...'

Finally...
She has a name. She has a past and she has a history.
She knows who she is. And she knows who she wanted to be.
She knows the way to all she ever wanted, but she knows she can't change the past that destroyed her.

"I swear I'm here, but I'm not. I swear I can feel, but I don't.
I swear I hear people, but I'm all alone.
Where am I? What have I done?"

If everything you knew was nothing you know, how do you begin to live again?
When beautiful dreams surround you but darkness consumes you, how do you begin to live anew?

"After I exhale, I turn to my empty room once again.
In the silence that follows my tears, I am washed in clarity.
I am NOT her. THIS is me..."

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    I Am Her...

      Sarah Ann Walker
I Am Her...

A sometimes funny, tragically graphic, compelling tale of a woman suffering...

WARNING- GRAPHIC CONTENT and THEMES

She has no name of her own. She is every name everyone has ever called her. She is nameless. She has a good job, a beautiful home and a wonderful husband. She is everything she was supposed to be. She has structure and stability, but she is lost.

She is trying. Her whole life is spent trying; yet her whole life has been nothing but an apology. She is so tired of trying and failing.

In just one week, she learns her entire life is a series of brutalities. She learns intense, consuming passion for the first time with a beautiful stranger. She learns love within this passion, and she learns heartbreak while without.

Slowly her breakdown overcomes her. She tries to rise above her circumstances, but when she has nothing left to fight with; she tries to ease the pain forever.

Desperately, she fights her way through the agony of life, and she returns with a gentle hope. She wants to live, and she wants to love, for the first time in her life. Now, she has a name. Now, she can be 'her'... Any HER that she wants to be.

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    We Are US...

      Sarah Ann Walker
We Are US...

The emotional conclusion to the I am HER... trilogy.

Does everything become amazing because you have the man and the life of your dreams? Does the nightmare stop, and the past fade?
No, it doesn't.

The past is always there, simmering in the background, stewing and bubbling to the surface of your soul. The past is always there no matter how much you wish it would go away and leave you alone.
No matter how hard you try or how far you come, life never changes.
For HER or for him.
Life continues until you wake one day beyond the storms of insanity to realize you will always love, no matter how tragic the heartache and pain becomes.

This is our good, bad, ugly and beautiful.
And together, we are US...

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    Lost

      Sarah Ann Walker
Lost

My name is Sophie Morley, and this is my story of loss.

I used to be mature, professional, and stable. I used to have friends and colleagues who respected me. I used to be someone I respected. I knew the life I wanted, and I lived within my forever plans. I was everything I thought I should be.

Then I met the man of my dreams, and everything changed in me.
Everything I was and everything I was to become changed with his love.
And I've never regretted one single moment of the life we shared.

My name is Sophie Morley,
and I am lost.

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    My Dear Stranger

      Sarah Ann Walker
My Dear Stranger

"Last night my dear stranger came to me..."

Sadie Adams spent years hiding a secret in her journal. A beautiful secret wrapped in a dear stranger who came to her in the night. A stranger who came to her filled with love, passion, and devotion. And her only release from her secret days and her lonely nights came from her journal; a journal that kept her company as life slowly passed her by while she anxiously waited for his return.

"How do you live, when you've spend your life waiting alone?"

Waiting, the darkness and pain grew until within the grip of loneliness and death, she finally found a light to hold onto.
Brighter and kinder than anyone she had ever known, Sadie finally chose to live in a world of light...
Even as a Darkness was born to destroy her.

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    (Mis)Trust

      Sarah Ann Walker
(Mis)Trust

My mum's words always echo in my mind...
"You can never trust a man with your heart. Men don't know what to do with a heart that's been given to them- so they break it."
But what happens to the woman who trusts with her heart after he breaks it?
I know, she fractures and shatters.

Knowing the definitions of the words that have defined me, this is my understanding.
Trust- To give oneself over to believing in a person or situation.
Distrust- The inability to trust or believe in a person or situation.
Mistrust- To be suspicious of a person or situation because you have no confidence in them.
The words themselves are simple, yet the definition of mistrust is not.
There is an element of grey and undefinable to mistrusting.
And sadly, it's this grey undefinable that has hurt me most in life.

I wanted to trust, but I just couldn't do it anymore.

Then I met him.
And he became my black and my white.
He became the beautiful exception to everything I had ever known before him.

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