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       One Past Midnight, p.1

           Jessica Shirvington
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One Past Midnight

  For Haz:

  I am so lucky to have such

  an incredible friend



  Chapter One: Roxbury, Friday

  Chapter Two: Wellesley, Friday

  Chapter Three: Wellesley, Friday

  Chapter Four: Wellesley, Friday

  Chapter Five: Roxbury, Saturday

  Chapter Six: Roxbury, Saturday

  Chapter Seven: Wellesley, Saturday

  Chapter Eight: Wellesley, Saturday/Roxbury, Sunday

  Chapter Nine: Roxbury, Sunday

  Chapter Ten: Roxbury, Sunday

  Chapter Eleven: Wellesley, Sunday

  Chapter Twelve: Wellesley, Sunday/Roxbury, Monday

  Chapter Thirteen: Roxbury, Monday

  Chapter Fourteen: Roxbury, Monday

  Chapter Fifteen: Wellesley, Monday

  Chapter Sixteen: Roxbury, Tuesday

  Chapter Seventeen: Roxbury, Tuesday

  Chapter Eighteen: Wellesley, Tuesday

  Chapter Nineteen: Wellesley, Tuesday

  Chapter Twenty: Wellesley, Tuesday/Roxbury, Wednesday

  Chapter Twenty-One: Roxbury, Wednesday-Saturday

  Chapter Twenty-Two: Roxbury, Saturday-Sunday/Wellesley, Saturday-Sunday

  Chapter Twenty-Three: Roxbury, Monday

  Chapter Twenty-Four: Wellesley, Monday—Graduation Day

  Chapter Twenty-Five: Wellesley, Monday—Graduation Night

  Chapter Twenty-Six: Roxbury, Tuesday

  Chapter Twenty-Seven: Wellesley, Tuesday

  Chapter Twenty-Eight: Roxbury, Wednesday

  Chapter Twenty-Nine: After Ethan

  Chapter Thirty


  I am a liar.

  Not compulsive.

  Simply required.

  I am two people. Neither better than the other, no superpowers, no mystical destinies, no two-places-at-one-time mechanism—but two people. My physical attributes, my memory, and my name follow me. For the past eighteen years, everything else, everything, about me is different. Twenty-four hours as the first version of me. And in the blink of an eye, twenty-four hours as the second. Every day, without fail, it goes on . . .

  I’ve never told anyone. By the time I was old enough to figure out no one else had two lives—by the time that little shock settled in—I didn’t know where to begin. How to begin. And society, both of them, didn’t want to know.

  When I was a child, I didn’t realize I was different from everyone else. But I’m pretty sure I’ve always been this way—this two-lives way—which means I was probably born twice, was a baby twice. No surprise I’m glad I can’t remember that. Being torn from one set of arms and thrust into another every twenty-four hours? Well, it doesn’t matter how much they love you . . . Can anyone say, issues?

  Practice makes perfect though, and I like to think of myself as a pro. I’ve ironed out the kinks; identified the major pitfalls and how to avoid them. I manage. I know who I need to be in each of my lives, and I try not to confuse my brain with the “infinity questions” anymore.

  I’ve learned to accept that in one life I love strawberries, while in the other my taste buds cringe at the flavor. I know that in one life I can speak fluent French, but, even though the memory of the language comes with me, in my other life I must not. Then there are easier things to remember, like Maddie, my gorgeous little sister in one life, and my not-so-great big brothers in my other.

  Above all else—though I try not to think about it—I know which life I prefer. And every night when I Cinderella myself from one life to the next, a very small but definite piece of me dies. The hardest part is that nothing about my situation has ever changed—the only thing I can be certain of is that my body clock is different from everyone else’s. There is no loophole.

  Until now, that is.

  I broke my wrist today.

  Capri and I were heading for the subway. I had a soda can at my feet, soccering it along the pavement, flashing sweet and mostly sour smiles to the suits who gave us “hooligan” looks as we passed. We attracted that kind of attention. Funny how clothes and generous use of eyeliner can do that. In my other life, no one would dare give me that kind of look. But there was something satisfying about it. My faded black mini and lace-up Doc Martens helped give me what I needed.

  My identity.

  Capri skipped ahead, her black hair bobbing, halfway between dreads and undecided. “I bet the guys are already there,” she said over her shoulder, speeding up.

  I suppressed a groan, hoisted the soda can onto the tip of my toe, kicked it into my hand, and picked up the pace. At the top of the stairs I paused to toss the can in the trash, and then . . . un-paused. I don’t know if it would’ve happened anyway. But right at that moment, one foot in the air about to step down onto the first of fifty-odd steps, I saw him.

  Well, I think I saw him.

  A round-bellied, middle-aged man. Dressed in a dated taupe suit and scuffed red-brown shoes. He was thinning badly up top and sweating either because of excess fabric or body weight. He looked different than usual, but in that moment I was certain. Fruit-stand guy, my mind whispered.

  It was a glitch.

  They happened every now and then, and they always threw me.

  My foot never found sure landing. Instead, it missed the step and caught the edge. I fell forward, propelled toward the bottom, making a fool of myself the entire way. Legs over ass, I flashed a good few dozen people on the way down, showing them pretty much all I had to offer.

  Capri, great friend that she is, was laughing before I even came to a stop. And not just a private little chuckle behind her hand before she could pull herself together. No, she all but wet herself, sliding down beside me as I tried to cradle my wrist and an arm that felt like it could, at any second, fall off my shoulder.

  Eventually, and mostly because of commuters grunting about having to go around us, I pulled myself to my feet. Capri was still laughing, pausing every now and then before obviously replaying the moment in her mind and cracking up yet again.

  Jesus. I wished I was in my other life at that moment. This was not the type of thing to let happen in this one.

  “I think I’ll need to go to the medical center,” I told Capri, who was only just beginning to realize I’d genuinely hurt myself.

  “Oh, shit. Sorry, Sabine. I thought you were okay.”

  I shrugged, instantly regretting it when a searing pain shot up my arm. “Probably just a sprain.”

  Luckily the medical center wasn’t far and we could walk. The idea of being crammed into a train with a funky arm didn’t work for me at all. Capri sent Angus, her sort-of boyfriend, a text to let him know we wouldn’t be meeting up at our usual after-school caffeine haunt. If it weren’t for the throbbing pain in my arm, I’d almost have been relieved. Capri and Angus had been trying to set me up with Davis for the past month. Nice guy, no spark.

  “It was pretty funny, though,” Capri said as we walked, still slipping into bouts of memory giggles. She could be a bitch sometimes, but ever since we were thrown together in junior high by our similar “freak” labels—thanks to Capri’s in-your-face individuality and my attempts at the time to simply ignore one of my two lives and everything in it—that particular trait had mostly worked in my favor. And she was the only friend in this life I’d managed to keep hold of, mostly because she didn’t care that I seemed . . . well, to put it in her words, like I was somewhere else half the time.

  I flashed her a smile. “Lucky I was wearing hot underwear!”

  Which I hadn’t been, of course. And thanks to my ass-in-the-sky display, she and more than a handful of Boston commuters knew it.

  Capri laughed so hard she snorted. “Yeah. Fl
oral print is making a comeback.”

  And then my arm hurt, because I was laughing too. Even while dreading that some bastard with an iPhone might have already uploaded footage of my floral booty to YouTube.


  At least it was only my wrist. But I’d be plastered up like a disaster zone for the next six weeks. Capri had already drawn some weird, screwed-up bat image on it. She was currently into Goth. On top of the half dreadlocks, she’d dyed her beautiful blond hair black and persisted with floor-length skirts even on the hottest days.

  I was happy sticking with my streetwise look. I wasn’t as fanatical about it as Capri; I just made sure I perfected the don’t-mess-with-me part. It was important, especially around Roxbury—which was still categorized as one of Boston’s “due for gentrification” areas. And although Mom and Dad would have preferred an extra five inches on my skirts, my look didn’t send them into complete freak-out mode.

  By the time I got home it was after 9:00 p.m. As soon as I opened the front door, I could hear Maddie bounding from her room toward the stairs. The door was barely closed behind me when she came barreling down the steps three at a time.

  “Binie! Binie!” She was just about to launch herself from the bottom step into my arms—one of her signature moves—when she saw the sling covering my arm.

  “What happened?” she asked, coming to an abrupt halt.

  To Maddie, I was invincible. Probably because half the time when I was sick I pretended not to be, always worried about unintentionally overdosing if I took medication in both worlds. It wasn’t easy when I had tonsillitis, but I couldn’t very well have that operation twice. And I’d certainly never broken anything before. ”It’s okay, Mads. I just broke my wrist when I fell over.”

  She looked worried, the corners of her mouth trembling. Having a six-year-old kid who worships me look so grave caused me the worst pain of the day.

  I smiled one of my goofy numbers for her. “Hey, kiddo, check it out!” I pulled my arm out of the sling, revealing the cast and Capri’s bat drawing. I twisted my arm to show her an untouched expanse of white. “I saved this whole area for you. You think you can draw something on it tomorrow for me?”

  Her eyes lit up. She took hold of her long strawberry-blond braid hanging over her shoulder and swayed. “Really? Me? You wouldn’t mind?”

  “Hey, you’re the best rabbit drawer I know. You think you can draw one of those bouncy ones you showed me the other day?”

  She nodded vigorously. I could already see her picturing it in her head.

  “Cool. I’ll make sure no one else draws on this section and tomorrow afternoon it’s all yours. But you better go back to bed before Mom catches you!” Of course I could already see Mom out of the corner of my eye in the kitchen doorway, but experience had taught us all that it was easier if I got Maddie to sneak back to bed by herself. I gave the top of her head a ruffle and she flung her arms around my waist, carefully avoiding my bad side.

  “Love you, Binie.” Her squeeze tore at my insides. Getting through days without her was one of the hardest things. I squeezed back.

  “See you in the morning,” I said lightly.

  They were the same words I’d said to her so many times. And every time I finished the sentence in the silence of my mind: the day after tomorrow.

  • • •

  Mom had her back to me when I came into the kitchen. “Tea?”

  “Yeah,” I said with a sigh, slumping into one of the tarnished wooden chairs at our chipped kitchen table. Our less-than-perfect kitchen fitted in well with our coming-apart-at-the-seams house.

  Mom filled up the kettle using a massive plastic gallon bottle. It was the same one we’d been using in the kitchen for the past two weeks. The problem wasn’t that the pipe was clogged; the problem was that, after one too many drinks, Dad had tried to fix it. Big mistake.

  Mom searched through the mugs, pulling out her favorite rose one followed by my preferred Daffy Duck mug.

  “What happened?” she asked, barely taking her attention away from her task. Even at this time of night, it wasn’t a surprise to see her still dressed in her work clothes, her graying hair pulled back in a tight knot, her heavily starched shirt tucked in at her slender waist. Mom and Dad were all about appearances. Mom, in particular, needed her family functional and firing on all cylinders.

  “Subway stairs,” I answered.

  With her shoulders set, she finished making the tea and sat across the table from me. “You should’ve called.”

  I adjusted my sling, glad that I would only have to wear it for a few days—the cast wrapped around my thumb and covering half my forearm was bad enough. “You would’ve just wanted to come and help.” And take over, I thought. “There was no point dragging Maddie out of bed just to sit in the stupid waiting room at the medical center. Anyway, Capri was with me.”

  Mom pursed her lips as she passed me my mug. “Such a comfort. Don’t suppose she’s discovered the many uses of a hairbrush yet?”

  I shrugged and blew on my tea. “She has a look going, Mom. She’s happy with it, so what’s the problem?”

  Mom stared at me as if the answer to that question was oh-so-obvious. She’d prefer I hung with a different crowd. Sometimes I wished I could tell her that I did. I stared into my mug as once again I considered that, given the choice, Mom would probably want my other life for me rather than this one. But that kind of thinking was never worthwhile.

  “Dad still at work?” I asked.

  Mom nodded.

  Dad worked long hours. He kept the drugstore open late Tuesday through Saturday, which meant he was rarely home before midnight. The drugstore would be a good business if they actually owned it, but instead they’d signed into a lengthy—and unprofitable—management contract. Even with extra staff, Mom and Dad split a heavy workload. They saw little of us and even less of one another. But they were relent-less, determined to send Maddie and me to a good college.

  At least that was one thing I could do for them. Going through school twice does help in the smarts department. Last year I’d pulled out the brain gene in Roxbury—much to Capri’s disgust—and even cashed in last month with a partial undergrad scholarship to Boston University.

  The thing is, I’m not even excited by the whole college thing. School twice is bad enough: college twice will suck—and God knows I won’t be able to avoid it in my other life, so I’d been hoping to skip it in this one. But when it came down to it, I just couldn’t do it to Mom and Dad. Or face the wrath that would follow.

  Pleasing everyone in my two lives has left me feeling raw at times. And frustrated. And exhausted. And . . . well, a lot of things I tried hard not to admit. There was no point.

  “If you’re hungry, there’s leftover cake in the fridge.”

  I shook my head. For the past week, we’d been work-ing our way through the gigantic chocolate cake Mom had

  made/massacred for my eighteenth birthday.

  “I grabbed something earlier,” I mumbled, looking away.

  “I could’ve called Dr. Meadows,” she said, still hurt I hadn’t contacted her.

  “Mom, don’t worry. Everything’s okay now.” I flashed her my arm and an I’m-just-fine smile. “Wrist broken, forearm in a cast. There’s nothing else anyone could do. In a few weeks it will all be back to normal.”

  And that’s when it dawned on me.

  “Shit!” I barked, catching a mouthful of tea in my good hand. I’d been so thrown by the glitch, by seeing fruit-stand guy, I hadn’t even considered the real problem.

  “Sabine!” Mom snapped.

  That was one thing my moms had in common: the no-swearing rule. But right then I didn’t care. Mom was lucky I hadn’t let the F-word fly.

  “Sorry, Mom. I just . . . I remembered my final history essay is due on Monday and I haven’t finished it.” I straightened my back to strengthen the lie. The days of feeling guilty about lying to my parents were long gone.

  Mom looked at me skept
ically. “Since when do you do homework on a Friday night?” She gestured to my arm. “And I’m sure your teacher will cut you some slack.”

  “No, it’s fine. I’m almost done.” I wiped my tea-wet hand on a dishcloth and grabbed my mug. “I’ll go finish it now so I won’t have to worry about it all weekend.”

  I wove through the kitchen and up the stairs, my mind scrambling to figure out exactly how I was going to handle this one.

  Broken wrist.

  Two lives.

  This had never happened before.

  It was close to 10:00 p.m.


  Only two hours to figure out a plan.

  I wouldn’t be sleeping tonight. In either life.

  I hated problems that flowed over—it meant I wouldn’t be able to sleep before the Shift. I could already feel my palms getting clammy. It always scared me, being awake

  at midnight.

  I tiptoed past Maddie’s room. Right then, I couldn’t cope with her; I didn’t have a brave face at the ready.

  After loading up the pillows on my bed, I sat down, resting my arm on top of the pile.

  “I am the master of my own world,” I chanted to myself. “I manage what happens to me. I can do this.” But my words were false and quickly fell away as the truth slammed into me and held on with an iron grip.

  I’ve broken my wrist.


  “Idiot!” My stomach tightened with fear and I tried unsuccessfully to slow my breathing.

  Usually I have a built-in radar for this type of stuff. The cans and can’ts. How it all works. It’s pretty simple really. My body, and anything inherent to my body—my mind, my memories—goes through the Shift. But that’s it. Material things—clothes, jewelry, even nail polish—get left behind. The only other thing that stays with me is my name. For reasons I can’t explain, both sets of parents called me Sabine.

  Bottom line, if I cut my hair in one life, it will be changed in the other. I dyed a hidden section of hair pink once, and although the dye didn’t travel, the pigment of my hair was affected enough to look different in my other life—I’ve never dared to experiment further. If I’m sick in one life, then I’m sick in both. If I get a tattoo in one world—not that I plan to, much to Capri’s disappointment—I’m almost certain it would only be visible in that life. Ink won’t travel, though the healing pains would be felt in both. If I had my nose pierced, the hole would exist in both lives, but the ring would stay in only one.

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