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           Chuck Palahniuk
Haunted


  Contents

  Title Page

  Epigraph

  Prologue

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  The Poems

  The Stories

  About the Author

  Also by Chuck Palahniuk

  Copyright Page

  There was much of the beautiful, much of the wanton, much of the bizarre, something of the terrible, and not a little of that which might have excited disgust.

  “The Masque of the Red Death”

  by Edgar Allan Poe

  Guinea Pigs

  This was supposed to be a writers' retreat. It was supposed to be safe.

  An isolated writers' colony, where we could work,

  run by an old, old, dying man named Whittier,

  until it wasn't.

  And we were supposed to write poetry. Pretty poetry.

  This crowd of us, his gifted students,

  locked away from the ordinary world for three months.

  And we called each other the “Matchmaker.” And the “Missing Link.”

  Or “Mother Nature.” Silly labels. Free-association names.

  The same way—when you were little—you invented names for the plants and

  animals in your world. You called peonies—sticky with nectar and crawling with

  ants—the “ant flower.” You called collies: Lassie Dogs.

  But even now, the same way you still call someone “that man with one leg.”

  Or, “you know, the black girl . . .”

  We called each other:

  The “Earl of Slander.”

  Or “Sister Vigilante.”

  The names we earned, based on our stories. The names we gave each other,

  based on our life instead of our family:

  “Lady Baglady.”

  “Agent Tattletale.”

  Names based on our sins instead of our jobs:

  “Saint Gut-Free.”

  And the “Duke of Vandals.”

  Based on our faults and crimes. The opposite of superhero names.

  Silly names for real people. As if you cut open a rag doll and found inside:

  Real intestines, real lungs, a beating heart, blood. A lot of hot, sticky blood.

  And we were supposed to write short stories. Funny short stories.

  Too many of us, locked away from the world for one whole

  spring, summer, winter, autumn—one whole season of that year.

  It doesn't matter who we were as people, not to old Mr. Whittier.

  But he didn't say this at first.

  To Mr. Whittier, we were lab animals. An experiment.

  But we didn't know.

  No, this was only a writers' retreat until it was too late for us to be anything,

  except his victims.

  1

  When the bus pulls to the corner where Comrade Snarky had agreed to wait, she stands there in an army-surplus flak jacket—dark olive-green—and baggy camouflage pants, the cuffs rolled up to show infantry boots. A suitcase on either side of her. With a black beret pulled down tight on her head, she could be anyone.

  “The rule was . . . ,” Saint Gut-Free says into the microphone that hangs above his steering wheel.

  And Comrade Snarky says, “Fine.” She leans down to unbuckle a luggage tag off one suitcase. Comrade Snarky tucks the luggage tag in her olive-green pocket, then lifts the second suitcase and steps up into the bus. With one suitcase still on the curb, abandoned, orphaned, alone, Comrade Snarky sits down and says, “Okay.”

  She says, “Drive.”

  We were all leaving notes, that morning. Before dawn. Sneaking out on tiptoe with our suitcase down dark stairs, then along dark streets with only garbage trucks for company. We never did see the sun come up.

  Sitting next to Comrade Snarky, the Earl of Slander was writing something in a pocket notepad, his eyes flicking between her and his pen.

  And, leaning over sideways to look, Comrade Snarky says, “My eyes are green, not brown, and my hair is naturally this color auburn.” She watches as he writes green, then says, “And I have a little red rose tattooed on my butt cheek.” Her eyes settle on the silver tape recorder peeking out of his shirt pocket, the little-mesh microphone of it, and she says, “Don't write dyed hair. Women either lift or tint the color of their hair.”

  Near them sits Mr. Whittier, where his spotted, trembling hands can grip the folded chrome frame of his wheelchair. Beside him sits Mrs. Clark, her breasts so big they almost rest in her lap.

  Eyeing them, Comrade Snarky leans into the gray flannel sleeve of the Earl of Slander. She says, “Purely ornamental, I assume. And of no nutritive value . . .”

  That was the day we missed our last sunrise.

  At the next dark street corner, where Sister Vigilante stands waiting, she holds up her thick black wristwatch, saying, “We agreed on four-thirty-five.” She taps the watch face with her other hand, saying, “It is now four-thirty-nine . . .”

  Sister Vigilante, she brought a fake-leather case with a strap handle, a flap that closed with a snap to protect the Bible inside. A purse handmade to lug around the Word of God.

  All over the city, we waited for the bus. At street corners or bus-stop benches, until Saint Gut-Free drove up. Mr. Whittier sitting near the front with Mrs. Clark. The Earl of Slander. Comrade Snarky and Sister Vigilante.

  Saint Gut-Free pulls the lever to fold open the door, and standing on the curb is little Miss Sneezy. The sleeves of her sweater lumpy with dirty tissues stuffed inside. She lifts her suitcase and it rattles loud as popcorn in a microwave oven. With every step up the stairs into the bus, the suitcase rattles loud as far-off machine-gun fire, and Miss Sneezy looks at us and says, “My pills.” She gives the suitcase a loud shake and says, “A whole three months' supply . . .”

  That's why the rule about only so much luggage. So we would all fit.

  The only rule was one bag per person, but Mr. Whittier didn't say how big or what kind.

  When Lady Baglady climbed on board, she wore a diamond ring the size of a popcorn kernel, her hand holding a leash, the leash dragging a leather suitcase on little wheels.

  Waving her fingers to make her ring sparkle, Lady Baglady says, “It's my late husband, cremated and made into a three-carat diamond . . .”

  At that, Comrade Snarky leans over the notepad where the Earl of Slander is writing, and she says, “Facelift is one word.”

  A few blocks later, after a couple traffic lights and around some corners waits Chef Assassin, carrying a molded aluminum suitcase with, inside, all his white elastic underpants and T-shirts and socks folded down to squares tight as origami. Plus a matched set of chef's knives. Under that, his aluminum suitcase is solid-packed with banded stacks of money, all of it hundred-dollar bills. All of it so heavy he used both hands to lift it into the bus.

  Down another street, under a bridge and around the far side of a park, the bus pulled to the curb where no one seemed to wait. There the man we called the “Missing Link” stepped out of the bushes near the curb. Balled in his arms, he carried a black garbage bag, torn and leaking plaid flannel shirts.

  Looking at the Missing Link, but talking sideways to the Ear
l of Slander, Comrade Snarky said, “His beard looks like something Hemingway might've shot . . .”

  The dreaming world, they'd think we were crazy. Those people still in bed, they'd be asleep another hour, then washing their faces, under their arms, and between their legs, before going to the same work they did every day. Living that same life, every day.

  Those people would cry to find us gone, but they would cry, too, if we were boarding a ship to start a new life across some ocean. Emigrating. Pioneers.

  This morning, we were astronauts. Explorers. Awake while they slept.

  These people would cry, but then they would go back to waiting tables, painting houses, programming computers.

  At our next stop, Saint Gut-Free swung open the doors, and a cat ran up the steps and down the aisle between the seats of the bus. Behind the cat came Director Denial, saying, “His name is Cora.” The cat's name was Cora Reynolds. “I didn't name him,” said Director Denial, the tweed blazer and skirt she wore frosted with cat hair. One lapel swollen out from her chest.

  “A shoulder holster,” says Comrade Snarky, leaning close to tell the tape recorder in the Earl of Slander's shirt pocket.

  All of this—whispering in the dark, leaving notes, keeping secret—it was our adventure.

  If you were planning to be stranded on a desert island for three months, what would you bring along?

  Let's say all your food and water would be provided, or so you think.

  Let's say you can only bring along one suitcase because there will be a lot of you, and the bus taking you all to the desert island is only so big.

  What would you pack in your suitcase?

  Saint Gut-Free brought boxes of pork-rind snacks and dried cheese puffs, his fingers and chin orange with the salt dust. One bony hand gripping the steering wheel, he tilted each box to pour the snacks into his thin face.

  Sister Vigilante brought a shopping bag of clothes with a satchel bag set in the top.

  Leaning over her own huge breasts, holding them like a child in her arms, Mrs. Clark asked, did Sister Vigilante bring along a human head?

  And Sister Vigilante opened the satchel far enough to show the three holes of a black bowling ball, saying, “My hobby . . .”

  Comrade Snarky looks from the Earl of Slander scribbling into his notepad, then looks at Sister Vigilante's braided-tight black hair, not one strand pulling loose from its pins.

  “That,” Comrade Snarky says, “is tinted hair.”

  At our next stop, Agent Tattletale stood with a video camera held to one eye, filming the bus as it pulled to the curb. He brought a stack of business cards he passed out to prove he was a private detective. With his video camera held as a mask covering half his face, he filmed us, walking down the aisle to an empty seat at the back, blinding everyone with his spotlight.

  A city block later, the Matchmaker climbed on board, tracking horse shit on his cowboy boots. A straw cowboy hat in his hands and a duffel bag hung over one shoulder, he sat and peeled back his window and spit brown tobacco juice down the brushed-steel side of the bus.

  This is what we brought along for three months outside of the world. Agent Tattletale, his video camera. Sister Vigilante, her bowling ball. Lady Baglady, her diamond ring. This is what we'd need to write our stories. Miss Sneezy, her pills and tissues. Saint Gut-Free, his snack food. The Earl of Slander, his notebook and tape recorder.

  Chef Assassin, his knives.

  In the dim light of the bus, we all spied on Mr. Whittier, the workshop organizer. Our teacher. You could see the spotted shiny dome of his scalp under the few gray hairs combed across. The button-down collar of his shirt stood up, a starched white fence around his thin, spotted neck.

  “The people you're sneaking away from,” Mr. Whittier would say, “they don't want you enlightened. They want to know what to expect.”

  Mr. Whittier would tell you, “You cannot be the person they know and the great, glorious person you want to become. Not at the same time.”

  The people who really, actually loved us, Mr. Whittier said they'd beg us to go. To fulfill our dream. Practice our craft. And they would love us when we all came back.

  In three months.

  The little bit of life we'd each gamble.

  We'd risk.

  This much time, we'd bet on our own ability to create some masterpiece. A short story or poem or screenplay or memoir that would make sense of our life. A masterpiece that would buy our way out of slavery to a husband or a parent or a corporation. That would earn our freedom.

  All of us, driving along the empty streets in the dark. Miss Sneezy fishes a damp tissue out of her sweater sleeve and blows her nose. She sniffs and says, “Sneaking out this way, I was so afraid of getting caught.” Tucking the tissue back inside her cuff, she says, “I feel just like . . . Anne Frank.”

  Comrade Snarky digs the luggage tag out of her jacket pocket, the remains of her abandoned suitcase. Her abandoned life. And, turning the tag over and over in her hand, still looking at it, Comrade Snarky says, “The way I see it . . .” She says, “Anne Frank had life pretty good.”

  And Saint Gut-Free, his mouth full of corn chips, watching us all in the rearview mirror, chewing salt and fat, he says, “How's that?”

  Director Denial pets her cat. Mrs. Clark pets her breasts. Mr. Whittier, his chrome wheelchair.

  Under a streetlight, on a corner up ahead, the dark outline of another would-be writer waits.

  “At least Anne Frank,” Comrade Snarky said, “never had to tour with her book . . .”

  And Saint Gut-Free hits the air brakes and cranks the steering wheel to pull over.

  Landmarks

  A Poem About Saint Gut-Free

  “Here's the job I left to come here,” the Saint says. “And the life I gave up.”

  He used to drive a tour bus.

  Saint Gut-Free onstage, his arms folded across his chest—so skinny

  his hands can touch in the middle of his back

  There stands Saint Gut-Free, with a single coat of skin painted on his skeleton.

  His collarbones loop out from his chest, big as grab handles.

  His ribs show through his white T-shirt, and his belt—instead of his butt—keeps up his blue jeans.

  Onstage, instead of a spotlight, a movie fragment:

  the colors of houses and sidewalks, street signs and parked cars,

  wipe sideways across his face. A mask of heavy traffic. Vans and trucks.

  He says, “That job, driving tour bus . . .”

  It was all Japanese, Germans, Koreans, all with English as a second language, with phrase

  books clutched in one hand, nodding and smiling at whatever he told the

  microphone as he steered the bus around corners, down streets, past the houses of

  movie stars or extra-bloody murders, apartments where rock stars had overdosed.

  Every day the same tour, the same mantra of murder, movie stars, accidents. Places

  where peace treaties got signed. Where presidents had slept.

  Until that day Saint Gut-Free stops in front of a picket-fence ranch house, just a detour

  to see if his parents' four-door Buick is there, if this is still where they live,

  where pacing the front yard is a man, pushing a lawn mower.

  There, into his microphone, the Saint tells his air-conditioned cargo:

  “You're looking at Saint Mel.”

  And, his father squinting at the wall of tinted bus windows,

  “The Patron Saint of Shame and Rage,” says Gut-Free.

  After that, every day, the tour includes “The Shrine of Saint Mel and Saint Betty.”

  Saint Betty being the Patron Saint of Public Humiliation.

  Parked in front of his sister's condo highrise, Saint Gut-Free points to

  some high-up floor. Up there, the shrine of Saint Wendy.

  “The Patron Saint of Therapeutic Abortion.”

  Parked in front of his own apartment,


  he tells the bus, “There's the shrine of Saint Gut-Free,”

  the Saint himself, his pigeon shoulders, rubber-band lips, and baggy shirt,

  reflected even smaller in the rearview mirror.

  “The Patron Saint of Masturbation.”

  While each seat in his bus, nodding heads, craning their necks, they look to see

  something divine.

  Guts

  A Story by Saint Gut-Free

  Inhale.

  Take in as much air as you can.

  This story should last about as long as you can hold your breath, and then just a little bit longer. So listen as fast as you can.

  A friend of mine, when he was thirteen years old he heard about “pegging.” This is when a guy gets banged up the butt with a dildo. Stimulate the prostate gland hard enough, and the rumor is you can have explosive hands-free orgasms. At that age, this friend's a little sex maniac. He's always jonesing for a better way to get his rocks off. He goes out to buy a carrot and some petroleum jelly. To conduct a little private research. Then he pictures how it's going to look at the supermarket checkstand, the lonely carrot and petroleum jelly rolling down the conveyor belt toward the grocery-store cashier. All the shoppers waiting in line, watching. Everyone seeing the big evening he has planned.

  So, my friend, he buys milk and eggs and sugar and a carrot, all the ingredients for a carrot cake. And Vaseline.

  Like he's going home to stick a carrot cake up his butt.

  At home, he whittles the carrot into a blunt tool. He slathers it with grease and grinds his ass down on it. Then—nothing. No orgasm. Nothing happens except it hurts.

  Then this kid, his mom yells it's suppertime. She says to come down, right now.

  He works the carrot out and stashes the slippery, filthy thing in the dirty clothes under his bed.

  After dinner, he goes to find the carrot and it's gone. All his dirty clothes, while he ate dinner, his mom grabbed them all to do laundry. No way could she not find the carrot, carefully shaped with a paring knife from her kitchen, still shiny with lube and stinky.

  This friend of mine, he waits months under a black cloud, waiting for his folks to confront him. And they never do. Ever. Even now he's grown up, that invisible carrot hangs over every Christmas dinner, every birthday party. Every Easter-egg hunt with his kids, his parents' grandkids, that ghost carrot is hovering over all of them.

 
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